confused?

The day i met my adopted brother was on october 9th at complex karamunsing at noon.... and oh my god!!!! i was so happy and shocked when i saw him... coz it has been a while i didn't see him.. :( so there it goes again.... the STRANGE FEELING when meeting him.. :( coz i used to write him letters, texting him & even hanging on the phone with him before... but now, it seems like everything's changed.... But the only thing that doesn't change till now is the love that i've been always keep in my little heart.... i love him..... i wish he's my real brother... but too bad.. he's not.. :( he's nice though.. believe me!!! he is! he's kind, good looking person, caring, loving, understanding and so much more.... The best brother i've ever met! he gives me strength whenever and wherever i meet him... sigh.... it's just that, i feel so confused since the day i met him till now..... how could this happening? damn! it shoudn't be happening! fuhhh! hell yeahh!! i am damn confused now... well starts that day that we met, after all this while keep ourselves silent, we then texting each other back... i miss him... i miss my bro... :( and at the same time, i miss my boyfriend too.. what's that supposed to mean??? LOL! anyhow, i love them both!! :) they are the best guy in my life!!! and they're replacing my late abah's position till when??? i don't know? But! i surely can't live without them... they are like my lungs to keep me stay alive, and my air to keep me stay breathing and my guardian to protect me from bad things... i thank god for their WELCOME in my life... really! i appreciate it very much! love you both... no matter how it goes, how it happens & how it turns, i will always love you both coz you guys name's are carved in my heart, means and showed that i will never forget you guys till the end of my live.... :) neways, hope you guys be happy, be strong, be loved & so on with your life... XOXO...

love,
SHASHA