OMG!!

SIGH~ here it goes again... I JUST HATE when everytime there's a text sent by my EX! you know, anything might happen! i don't want it to be happen! he was texting me around 10.30-11.00p.m just now~ and guess what?!! well, he actually promised my adopted lil' sister a ROXY purse for her present in UPSR result~ and i was asking a ROXY sandle... :D but a few minutes later, when he told me that he is going to company HIS ADMIRER, name L*NNA, i then canceled my request... so as his promised towards my lil' sis... blablablablablablaaaa! when the situation become more and more uncomfartable, he then decided to not contact or disturb me anymore and he don't even want to be friends with me... 'coz i told him that let me be happy with my boyfriend now... and i told him that we'll be just a friend... like usual b4~ but then, it seems that he can't accept it and he made decision as that...! he still loves me.. that's what he told me before.. but i guess, he won't be loving me nemore~ those feelings that he had before will fade away soon~ he's a nice person actually... well, you know... when in a relationship, all your true attitudes come out.. there's nothing that you can hide nemore. i broke-up with you, 'coz i know you can't stand of me and i am bored enough of you! i was HARSH towards you before, but hey! you made me be that way!~ am so SORRY though~ i just don't like the way you treated me as your girlfriend before~ i ever thought that i might lose you and you might be bored of me... but surprisingly, it's not you! it was me who felt that way! OMG! it's not that i don't love you.. it's just that, things are different now... it's not like usual.... and i'm not used to it nemore... am so sorry.. i didn't mean to hurt you... now you know how i feel before... how hurt i felt, how sad i was and so on.. i just couldn't describe how i felt before... it was extremely HURT! seriously, it does! but hey, i hope you'll be happy and get a better girl for yourself eyh? i hope so! thanks for everything though~ thank god that i'm happy with my life now~ happy with my new hubby~ :) hurm, thanks again.... i think, that's all i wanted to say~ :) night all! i wanna continue playing POKER in FB~ hehe... mmuah! .XOXO.

Love,
CHACHA

i'm BACK with lots of ekspressions to FILL IN

1st: PAST is a FACT for us to DEAL with~ REGRET of it is BETTER than DOING IT over AGAIN.. i THANK GOD 'coz i am now happy with my LIFE & quite SATISFY with it... how SHOCKING i am 'till now 'coz I CAN'T BELIEVE that I can get OVER IT when BREAKING-UP with him... HOLLY COW!! LOL~ USUALLY I CAN'T ACCEPT the FACT when BREAKING-UP with him.. BUT HEY!! now that i MANAGE to HANDLE it, that's a GOOD SIGN isn't it?? ^_^ atleast me & him are FRIENDS but NOT ENEMIES.. :) we BROKE-UP in a NICE way i guess?? :D and NOW?? i'm with my NEW GUY... a GUY who MAKES me HAPPY & TREAT me as his REAL GF... i HOPE my FEELINGS towards him WON'T FADE AWAY~ 'coz i EASILY get BORED with RELATIONSHIPS thingy~ :) but hey! as long as it makes me HAPPY & WELL TAKE CARE of or so on, i WON'T get that BORED too FAST! ;) so, here it goes... A LONELY LIFE of mine on the INSIDE but a CROWDED LIFE on the OUTSIDE... HUMANS... NO OBJECTIONS when saying 'bout their HUMANITY! 2nd: there's this LECTURER that i know, is SO DAMN IRRITATING! he ACT like HE IS THE ONE. THE ONE that is so PERFECT in DESIGNING.. LOL.. SHAME ON YOU dude! a LECTURER, the ONE WHOM worked there for about YEARS is BETTER THAN YOU ARE! so DON'T ACT LIKE you're the HOT STUFF but the TRUTH is, the OPPOSITE way~! you WAN'T YOUR STUDENTS to DESIGN something which is SOMETHING DIFFERENT.. SOMETIMES WE, as a STUDENT, MANAGE to do WHAT u ASKED FOR.. but HEY! we are STUDENTS... not GRADUATE YET! u TEACH, we LEARN! but when WE DON'T KNOW, & we never CARE to ASK YOU, it is BECAUSE that YOU'RE ANNOYING! YOU ACT like YOU'RE GOOD! hey! what kind of LECTURER are YOU?! TALK BAD THINGS 'bout YOUR STUDENT! YOU'RE JUST A LECTURER! A L E C T U R E R! READ & SAY THAT OUT LOUD! YOU'RE NOT GOD to JUDGE YOUR STUDENTS!!! YOUR JOB is to TEACH YOUR STUDENTS in any SUBJECTS that YOU'RE TEACHING! NOT by INSULTING your STUDENTS YOU MORON!! WE PAY the COLLEGE! & YOUR SALARY that YOU GOT, is PART of OUR MONEY that we PAID!!! YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT to say BAD THINGS which is UNTRUE 'bout YOUR STUDENTS! YOU SHOULD BE PROFFESIONAL as a LECTURER! YOU DON'T KNOW ANY SINGLE THING 'bout the STUDENTS in COLLEGE! so, YOU DON'T DARE to say THAT YOU KNOW EVERYTHING 'bout THESE STUDENTS in COLLEGE!! OMG! GET LIVE DUDE! DON'T JUDGE the PERSON by THEIR PERSONALITY! YOU TALK BAD THINGS 'bout THEM, DID YOU EVER THINK of YOURSELF wether YOU ARE TOO GOD ENOUGH or NOT before TALK/SAY BAD THINGS 'bout THEM?! HEY!!! FYI, all the INFORMATIONS that i GOT 'bout YOU is so PATHETIC! DO YOU HEAR ME? P A T H E T I C! YOUR FRIENDS EVEN SAID THAT YOU'RE DAMN BOASTED! so PLEASE! STOP MUMBLING AROUND & bring YOUR STINKY MOUTH HERE & THERE! STOP SPREADING RUMOURS whic is NOT TRUE!
OKAY?! FUH! DAMN i feel RELIEF~ LOL! 3rd: things are getting SMOOTH & PEACE lately~ & i LIKE that! been VERY BUSY lately doing some ASSIGNMENTS.... it TAKES TIME for me to do it.. hehe.. 'coz I ONLY FOLLOW my MOOD when doing my ASSIGNMENTS... that HARD eyh? :p 4th: hurm... this GUY that i am IN A RELATIONSHIP with now is NICE & RELAXING my SOUL~ NOTHING to WORRY about. HE IS WAYYYYY OLDER THAN I AM! BUT HEY! that's not a PROBLEM at all! :) AGE DOES NOT MATTER! ALL THAT MATTER is, TRUST, LOVE, HONESTY & FAITHFUL~ :) 5th: look at his LIL' SISTER... SHE'S SO CUTE! she got BIG ROUND EYES & LONG EYE LASHES with a DIMPLE too on her CHEEK?~ hehe... LOOK2!!:
she's SO CUTE RIGHT?! :)

6th: damn i feel REALLY TIRED, SLEEPY & ALL SORTS of things~ NEED A VERY BIG REST! but i CAN'T! NO TIME TO REST~ :( hurm.... well, i better get back on doing my assignments... will be WILL BE POSTING NEW BLOGS when i FEEL TOO & when I HAVE TIME~ :) LASTLY: goodbye FOLKS! TAKE CARE! :)

Love,
CHACHA

FRUSTRATED!

you are the only one that i love.... that i trust..... that i care..... but you?!!! you made me like a TRASH!!!! you even treat me like a TRASH!! how could you?!!! you didn't even care to do something that night?!!! all you did was PUSH me out of your car! and others, u noe what u did! is that how you should treat me?! is that how you LOVE ME?!!!! y am i so PATIENT in you huh?!!!! why can't u b like that?!!! u really made me feel like......ERGGGHHHHHHHH!!!! i just dunno what else to say!!!!!! u broken up my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!! u never care about me all this while... u just want what u want from me.... u really make me feel in miserable! y are u like dis?!! u don't make do things that you don't want me to do... neway, u don't care if i do neway.... THANKS A LOT!!! FOR WHATEVER IT IS!!

in PAIN & MISERY~

i don't know how & what to start first... but all i can say is that my life is now empty.... MOODY, in MISERY, in PAIN & sooooo much more.... bye for now.... i need to be alone this time....

confused?

The day i met my adopted brother was on october 9th at complex karamunsing at noon.... and oh my god!!!! i was so happy and shocked when i saw him... coz it has been a while i didn't see him.. :( so there it goes again.... the STRANGE FEELING when meeting him.. :( coz i used to write him letters, texting him & even hanging on the phone with him before... but now, it seems like everything's changed.... But the only thing that doesn't change till now is the love that i've been always keep in my little heart.... i love him..... i wish he's my real brother... but too bad.. he's not.. :( he's nice though.. believe me!!! he is! he's kind, good looking person, caring, loving, understanding and so much more.... The best brother i've ever met! he gives me strength whenever and wherever i meet him... sigh.... it's just that, i feel so confused since the day i met him till now..... how could this happening? damn! it shoudn't be happening! fuhhh! hell yeahh!! i am damn confused now... well starts that day that we met, after all this while keep ourselves silent, we then texting each other back... i miss him... i miss my bro... :( and at the same time, i miss my boyfriend too.. what's that supposed to mean??? LOL! anyhow, i love them both!! :) they are the best guy in my life!!! and they're replacing my late abah's position till when??? i don't know? But! i surely can't live without them... they are like my lungs to keep me stay alive, and my air to keep me stay breathing and my guardian to protect me from bad things... i thank god for their WELCOME in my life... really! i appreciate it very much! love you both... no matter how it goes, how it happens & how it turns, i will always love you both coz you guys name's are carved in my heart, means and showed that i will never forget you guys till the end of my live.... :) neways, hope you guys be happy, be strong, be loved & so on with your life... XOXO...

love,
SHASHA

★Basics★

Real Name:
Noor Sharanei Binti Kudran
Nick Names:
Chacha, Shasha & Sasa
D.O.B:
July 8th 1990
P.O.B:
Cheras, Kuala Lumpur
Race:
Malay Cocos
Ambitions:
Modeling, Stewardess, Actress & Graphic Designer